When I look back now I realize how stupid it was of me to force my way, to try to work out things by myself without considering and even aligning myself to The perfect will of God. I remember years ago when I tried to work out a relationship that by the end of the day coated me a lot, putting me into depression for one and half years. It was indeed a nightmare. This relationship made me ineffective in my ministry for quite some time.
I remember very well hearing the prompting of The Holy Spirit, but I ignored, or let’s say I was never tuned to The Holy Spirit to understand His promptings. God even spoke to me through a dream in which I saw my partner and I, standing in the light but with time she let go of my hand and went into darkness. To me it was indeed a puzzle, as I never understood the message the dream conveyed. This dream repeated itself twice.
When I tried my Will
I also remember a day I lost my hostel room key and that same day God provided me with a hacksaw and a piece of metal, from which I tried hard to cut out a key. Shockingly, the key never worked. At that moment, The Holy Spirit spoke to my heart saying, “son, this is how hard you have been trying to work out your life and relationship out of God’s will and like that key, you have failed terribly.” From that moment I had a deep conviction that I was working out my will and not hearkening to God’s voice.
Today as we speak the lay is married by another man, and I can’t talk about how this come to be, because it’s really a long story, and I would also like to spare you my reader the burden and stress of knowing such matters, for it is indeed depressing to know.
What is the will of God?
The will of God is not simply a passive plan, the blueprint for His creation, but it’s also His heart desires. His will is broad as it covers every aspect of our lives and the universe at large. The will of God affects our lives positively and brings harmony in the universe and eternity. It does not contradict His Word, as it stands on the integrity of His own Word. It is therefore God’s nature to reveal Himself and His divine purpose to men.
How do I know I am in God’s will?
Using the analogy described the book of Numbers 9:15-23, we can clearly understand what it really means to be in God’s will and it’s importance. By day The LORD led His people by a cloud and by night with a pillar of fire. When we are in His will, we can always sense and even experience His presence as He leads us through. Just like the Israelites, the cloud showed them direction and anyone who choose not to follow the cloud [God’s will], lost direction and died in the heart of the desert. The presence of God in our lives is crucial as it helps to know if indeed we are in God’s will or doing His will. In God’s Will, nothing goes wrong. We should therefore seek to configure ourselves in His will and choose to trust in His perfect purpose, for in His will nothing goes wrong.
We naturally don’t want God’s will, we want our will. But His will is necessary for us to be successful and blessed. We should therefore learn to submit our will and desires to God’s perfect will for it is good, pleasing and perfect. [Romans 12:2].
Why not my will?
There is a way that seems right to a man and appears straight before him, but at the end of it is the way of death.
The will of man is full of flaws, weakness which may not be seen in the short run, but in the long run, it brings remorse, regrets and great loss.
Man’s will is deeply rooted in his selfish desires, greed and his lustful nature, which are self-destructive. It’s only the will of God that is good, acceptable and perfect.
Our desire and prayer should always be that we may know His will and submit to Him, for He created us and knows what’s best for us.
It is to our advantage to know God’s will and configure and align ourselves to it. He will never force us to do so, for He has given us free will. If He was to deprive us of free will, then we would be puppet and not humans anymore. But He chose to give us free will, therefore, let us use it to do His will for we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which were prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them. [Ephesians 2:10].
Teach me to do Your will, for You are my God; let Your good Spirit lead me into a level country and into the land of uprightness.